Capitol Disillusionment
I have to confess that sometimes living on Capitol Hill makes me very self-righteously sick to my stomach. I just took a short jaunt over to Eastern Market, our nineteenth-century style community marketplace, a trip that usually lifts my spirits. But today I am waxing cynical, and the sight of the market stalls being flooded with wealthy yuppie Hill-staffer wives and their souped-up perambulators burgeoning with spoiled children turned me green. Ideally, the sight of beautiful women raising their children on fresh air and organic vegetables should thrill me, giving me hope for a future abundant with such images of health and social responsibility. But the reality is that these families and their whole foods-dependent, high-spending-threshold lifestyles have pushed to the outskirts of this neighborhood most of its long-standing, but poorer, residents. It's all just so damn quaint--and a little too perfect--that these shiny-faced people can gallivant about so neighborly and cheerily. All the while I can't help but shudder at the fact that they are parading their ecologically-responsible, politically-correct lives over the lost property and dreams of their less-fortunate neighbors.
As if I don't want to live an ecologically-responsible, socially-just life. As if I don't want to have the power to influence the state of my children's school or the level of lead in the city water. As if I wouldn't love to live on a pesticide-hormone-insecticide-free diet. As if I have any right to criticize people who look like me, who have backgrounds and stories similar to mine, and whose level of success and wealth I could very well achieve some day. But I'm glad to be moving from Capitol Hill. I'm glad to be moving to another part of the city--a little rougher around the edges--where I can't pretend that quaint open-air markets, arms full of fresh fruits and vegetables, and wealth and comfort are the standard for most of the world's citizens. Where I can't pretend that my own complacency should be a normal state of being, and where I hope I won't be able to ignore the lost dreams around me.
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